the love song of the week : Smashing Pumpkins - Shame

I was humming this one whole day when went out with you (hey you) you wore one nice gothic dark brown dress while im like usuall elegant black of beauty goth..went to all the places in the world today..went to OU for a kingly lunch of again secret recipe..doing a big business with em...secret..tell no tale emo-gothika! aah its again a wonderful day...you again wonderful beautiful as the sky..i pressedmyself to the glass wanting you...this is for people madly in love nation...its a sweet love song..easy to play with guitar too..God must be crazy to match the beauty of you with my gothicity..i'll promise to change to a white neutral goth now..angels...you sent me back all the way to cyberia..oh nice.. oh kind...oh love... how tired i am..i still write at least one devoted for you nazie baby...gut nite n let the angels play their harps while you dream away,....love you youuu..enjoy this song and find it to download...later i'll pass it or hare it as it's a hard song to find..among the hardest to find yet the best there is...enjoy people the meaning of love smashing pumpkin's lovely gothic way...~




You're gonna walk on home

You're gonna walk alone

You're gonaa see this through

Don't let them get to you


Sh sh sh sh shame (x2)


Love is good and love is kind

love is drunk and love is mine

Love is good and love is mine

Love is drunk all the time


Sh sh sh sh sh shame (x2)


You're gonna walk on home

You're gonna walk alone

You're gonna walk so far

You're gonna wonder who you are


Sh sh sh sh sh shame (x2)


Shame shame


Love is good and love is kind

Love is good and love is blind

Love is good and love is mine

Love is good all the time


Hello, goodbye, you know you made us cry (x)

if i were to love you...

if i were to love you

i would love you dearly

i would love you shyly

i would love you gothly

i would love you darkly

i would love you silently

i would love u promisingly

i would love you like never human has done before

let the sun stop and the ocean stops from the shore

like dolphins and their swimming

like trees and their silent humming

like the arrangement of roses' petal

would my love to you as complex as it can be

i can make it as simple as a baby

if you want to

for you i will

let me shade your pain

let me dry you tears

let me make you smile

let me let you live

as i cant face life without you

it would be a possible life

but i prefer death than living without you

gou gave me wings to make me fly

if its broken you mend it for awhile

i wont know the word lonely

as you bring with you deep summer breeze

you are as white as the winter

and as hot as the summer

but when autumn comes

you shine the most

angels sing your name when you come

god perfected you

in a way ony He knows

you bring the attraction none has

to every single human being on this wretched place

yet as wretched as the earth can be

you are her saviour, i'm just the hero wannabe

flowers utters your name

bees know you by heart

birds fall from the sky for you

i wish i could do that too

i wont say what i will do to make you stay

as you are my queen do as you please

go as you may come as you please

this happy heart of mine are opened for your breeze

if i ever done you wrong

wanna let you know

that i am just a small boy

with his foolishness and a candy

just wish to see his girl of dream

and hold her hands while eating ice cream

if i were to love you

end my life when i end loyalty

xoxoxo

(love u baby)



andri ghazali
1983 - present

Song of the Week : Smashing Pumpkins - Stand Inside Your Love

every word per word..line per line..every guitar scream and drum knox..every chorus and bridge of this song..i sing it for you..nazi(you) hail Hitler! for readers..this is my favourite favourite favourite disbanded band..once consisted of Billy Corgan, James Iha, and the pretty Darcy (drummer often changed),they are superb... enjoy the lyrics and the song, the vid clip is also kudos!


You and me
Meant to be
Immutable
Impossible



It's destiny
Pure lunacy
Incalcuble
Insufferable

But for the last time
You're everything that i want and ask for
You're all that i dreamed

Who wouldnt be the one you love?
who wouldnt stand inside your love?

Protected and the lover of
A pure soul and beautiful..you
Dont understand
Dont feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us

Travel the world
Travel the skies
Your home is here
Within my heart

And for the first time
I feel as though i am reborn
in my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage

Who wouldnt be the one you love?
Who wouldnt stand inside your love

And for the first time
I'm telling you how much i need and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time
I'll wrap a wire around your heaart and your mind
You're mine forever now

Who wouldnt be the one you love and live for?
who wouldnt stand inside your love and die for?
who wouldnt be the one you love?




nice song..i want to be the one you love..desperately.. ;)

Damien Rice's superb Blower's Daughter song and guitar tabs/chords/whatever

and so it is jreng jreng jreng
just like u said..it woouuuuuld be
jreng reng jreng..

nice song kudos lyrics
learn and live!

news news..aah..news

What news is revolving around me today? around u..us? What news does the world bring? News by the way stands for North East West South...here i am alone..and i like being alone here..expressing my slef with this piece of plastic that we call as keyboard...

Yesterday i went to GHKL doing the sick dungeon-torture simulation of radiotheraphy..its not the real radioblast thing yet..its just they put a hot net at your face to catch the image of your face in plastic net mode..kinda like mission impossible kinda thing you know..i had to lie down (which hurts) for 1 and a half hour for the simulation..in the very nearly end (i don't know to trust the mo or not when he said "sikit je lagi bang pastuh siap") i wave my hands signalling giving up to endure such torture... i gave up..aargghh hated myself for being such a weakling...such a weakly earthling... but i can endure no more such unspeakable pain..my lungs are half-collapsed, i am suffering from coughing and yet i was told to put off my shirt in an air-conditioned room..nice treat to the chest eaa??..soo i decided thaaats it!!!!..waved to the medical officers..told em we do it next week coz i don't feel good..

later then went to Maju Junction..first time..first trip of me goin there..a few nice shoppes..so windoshop for a while..to look for a Celcom shop for simcard recovery was the main quest - simcard recovery..yet again i faillll..no there's no celcom..but maxis shop is around here..the answer i get when i went to see the information lady at her fancy woody booth..so in the rain waited for papa to pick me up and off we went to Carrefour

does it interest you that Carrefour means crossroads? simpang ammpatt..it symbolizes that every crossroad you go, sure there'll be Carrefour there..hmm..i love the Carrefour symbol tho..the logo..it reflects simplicity yet brings out the French flag in it..with the letter C...ahh human mind such great creativity and power God gives us.

while waiting i read the paper..yesterday's news~ Israel yet again broke the 1701 ruling, still goin to war...Israel wants to conquer Lebanon until the Kina or something river (i cant't remember the river name sorry).hizbullah rules..Blair is being blamed for the terorist activities..his support for Israel and US loses 6 of his Labor party wingmen's heart...an open letter being sent to him to do something about the Lebanon-Israel war or axpect more terorist activities..those 6 men of Blair actually signed the letter..aah Blair is losing power..so does Bush...our primo ministro? He looked kinda fat..he gained weight..in his pix in UTUSAN yesterday..yes..Malaysia produces the first SUV that uses petrol of = 50% petrol - 50% water.. hydroxene whatever tech..first in the world i think..the LMG cars that uses water as petrol (is it LMG or LFG? absolutely not the LMF the lazy motherfuckers Hong Kong rap group) the dude invented it gonna be soo filthy rich!! in NST it was said doctors are gonna do some BIG protests all over the country..GP mostly are told by the government to pay RM 1500 for registration and need to do some renovations at their clinics..hmm..what are u up to health ministry?? need money iszzzziit?? In metro and utusan and BH i think all screamed about Siti's not the fault that Datuk K divorced with her wifre..which i will never discuss in my blog here.. Then Our 2nd Man najib warns people to shut off the Dr M versus Pak Lah talk of Tambak Johor cancellation issues with Singapore whatsoever...aah..peaceful Malaysia? that revolves around the world today..and i don't give a damn..im off to my 5/6 hours French learning..soo au revoir and take care beloved readers!~~

Amoretti (from the sequence of The Faerie Queene)

this poem mostly shows how Spenser uses the Sonnets or little songs in his poem..nice poem..beautiful expressions..peruse peruse


Amoretti

My love is like to ice, and I to fire
How comes it then that this her cold so great
Is not dissolved through my so hot desire
But harder grows the moreI her entreat?
Or how comes it that my exceeding heat
is not delayed by her heart-frozen cold
But that i burn much more i boiling sweat
And feel my flames augmented manifold?
What more miraculous thing may be told
That fire, which all thing melts, should harden ice
And ice, which is congealed with sensless cold
Should kindle fire by wonderful device?
Such is the power of love in gentle mind
That it can alter all the course of kind




Edmund Spenser
(1552 - 1599)

I (adjective?)

another poem from the mental ward















I (adjective?)


I study people
From the bustling urban city
From the dark mysterious cave
I study their manner
I study how they behave

I see people
Dead or alive
In the shady graveyards
On the streets with lamp posts nearby

Both want acknowledgements
One wants power
The other wants peace
With the world hereafter

I see, I study, I observe, I ponder
How God made the galaxy is a wonder
With flying flags of truth shall we
go forward with murderous thunder

I am who I am
am I?
Are we who we are
are we?
I am who am I?


Andri Ghazali
1983 - present

i wanna go

i wanna go and study business studies in one of these places

The Song of the Week : Juliet the Orange - Quizzical

This is regarding to my 'The girl of my dream post' haha..to any chix..such honesty as potrayed in the song is what every guy (i think la) is looking for...go figure! and yes..its not the 'song of the day' anymore..it has become 'week' now..too many cool songs to listen to anyhow and we only have 7 days and i can only online once in 2 days..soo do the maths..peruse the beautiful-cute-confession of a girl turned into lyrics! The song is sooo nice..if you havent listen to it then go download/buy the cd!!

Quizzical

I don't even comb my hair
When i wake up in the morning
I've always been like that
My clothes are on the floor
And I just don't have the time to put them back
La-di-da-da-da
La-di-da-da-da

Is this what you truly want for a girlfriend
Or am I just someone you find
pretty cute for a good time?
Don't go breaking my heart
I think very deeply
and i hold very dearly from the start

So why fo you still love me, ooh o-oh (2x)

I'm so useless in the kitchen
and my cuisine is lousy
it makes u want to curl
my toes are awfully huge
and i am not just the stuff that makes a girl
La-dida-da-da(2x)

Pardon me...i'm quizzical
Pardon me but i'm quizzical

I don't even call you baby
'cause that's what i call my dog
It would have sounded funny and so strage
Don't expect me to be crawling over you
For maybe i am just a poor unromantic

So why do you still love me?,hmm-oh-ohh

The Deafening Silence

this was one of the few poems that i wrote during my 'insanity' stay at the mental ward

The Deafening Silence

The Deafening Silence
Keeps me awake
during the night
For the purplish Dawn I shall wait

The Morning Dawn
with flying birds chirping away
beez humming which flower to stay
The Sunshine keeps me warm and sane

Evening light
The now-appearing stars shine bright
Moon shyly takes its place
Replacing Sun the Might

Then again I shall wait
For the things that keeps me awake
during the Starry night so bright
The long Deafening Silence

The Deafening Silence
shall keep me awake
till my soul decide
to rest in peace


Andri Ghazali
1983 - present

the girl of my dream

Oih kurvi tasch amaih! It has already been nearly 3 months i am single and happy mappy..didnt even mentioned about lovey dovey (except 4 sade's song) for about 3 months..still single and available..do i want to stay available?? dunno ..sometimes do feel lonley..but then i occupy myself with this lowly blog of mine, some artwork, some poetry writings (yes i do write poems since after the mental ward incident), some french learning..tell me when shall i feel lonley then? when at night..when my eyes are heavy..i always dream the girl of my dream..so who is the girl of my dream?? (Paula Malai Ali been taken already..cannot lah)


the girls of my dream...first ly must be a happy and jovial chick laa! i really dont care (ok i do) if you are hot or not..but must have a very very very very awesome personality..the girl that i can joke about reader's digest's laughter the best medicine, the girl i can talk about the beauty of Shakepseare's SOnnet's or the difference between the lustrious BAch's Air or Air with G-string..or talk about what Pollock was trying to express in his artworks..u knoee..talk bout sport...mein kemph Adolf hitler's original propaganda..Sun tze (hmmm) etc etc..= she has to be smart..not hollowly and shallowly blonde (pretty but pretty dumb type)..she also have to ave this urge to talk with me in english 24/7..then maybe a lil deutsch or francais..the more the more complex we are the more i like..cooking? up to you lahh.. can learn one...religion..numero uno!!!!Solat u dont have to be reminded lah!a big gal already what! can stand my micker mocker pitty pottery mouth..can see and understand a cancer patient's view of life, world and death and afterlife..So you want to talk about stilettos and blouses and perfumes..fine by me..just dont go every 5 minutes.."AWAK SAYE GEMOK KE?" kinda shit..pisses me off..when go window shopping? its 50-50..i'll see the thingys you like and u haftra see mine..better still if u are a good makeup artist since i am a goth kid...well that's about it my RAMPAI IKLAN mencari cinta.. if ever..im not that desperate..we are still so young..lemme see the world..adios..g2g to KL now..adios luvs