L.O.V.E. (Part II)

Well it's been more than a week now since i posted anything in this 'Melancholic Lullabies" of mine..well i guess this is kinda the right moment to post a new post inside here, so that your weekend would be worse than ever - reading my blog that completely brings nothing of significant..i think.

By tomorrow, i'll be going to the wedding of Azrul (my cousin) and Ruby in the famous Dewan MErak Kayangan..or something that sounds like it. Ah, finally they are tying the knot. Its nice to see such nice happy endings ala a fairytale story. Well, that's love. Either you end your life holding hands with your loved ones till the very end of your life, fulfilling every vows that you announced on your historical magical wedding day..or you also - due to love - might end up sitting alone, wanting nothing more of the heartaches the game could offer..

In English we call it 'fate', 'destiny'..in Malay it's jodoh. Jodoh as they say, has already been fixed by God, as same as our death. Not being an anti-orthodox or anything, but yes, i do believe that death and jodoh is all has been arranged by God. So as our success, our failure, our achievements, our gain and our loss..i think that too, has been prefixed by God. But can a man be a successful CEO by not putting any effort? God has stated in the holy book of Quran, that he will permit us change, but only if we put effort in it. As to that, i believe that jodoh is also something you have to work on too, something you have to put effort to make it work.

The thing we (mostly us, the Malays) do today, that if anything goes wrong, we have this tendency of putting all the blame towards jodoh. If a married couple divorces, they blame it on jodoh. If a woman found herself still holding the 'single' title when she's 40, yep, she'll blame it on jodoh. For me, jodoh is just a scapegoat we choose to use when things go bleak. A total devoted believer of jodoh would actually (i think) cage her daughter in a room in the highest tower ala Rapunzel and still, one day, a man would come and offer marriage. Are you sh#*&ing me?? What happens when divorces happens? do you work it out first? Go to counseling? Rekindle your every first moments by going to the places you've gone while you were madly drunkly in love during your youthful time? or you just blame it to 'oh there's no jodoh, what to do, what to do.."??It may sound easy, but complicated things. problems that we continuously have around us, it's wiser to pick one problem at a time and work it out rather than using the 'jump ship' method all the time.

So what if one day, you woke up feeling - damn it i have been with this guy/chick for a year now, and suddenly i have this boring feeling. I don't want to see his/her face ever again. I want to be single again?? Then you'll end up being another number in the statistics of unmarried people - who'll always blame it on jodoh, blaming on high demands in workplace, blaming of lack of time, blaming the ill fated bad-luck that you inherited from your late late late late great great great granma/granpa. When it is plainly seen that you yourself doesn't have the maturity to handle complicated situation in a relationship. Of course the first few months of love can be so sweet, then when it reaches a year or two, then only our commitment and maturity will be put to test. And often we fail, as it is human nature, for us, we only want the sweet part of things, and ignore the bitter taste that could offer nothing but hurt, heartaches, boredom, frustration and bla bla bla...

It's easy to fall in love, but to keep yourself to be in love is a totally different matter. Commitment, loyalty, toleration, patience are all the things you need to survive in the battle, as love not only gives you hope, passion, the cloud-9 feeling, it also in time, will offer you heartache, hurt, boredom, vengeance and all the other bad things the world could possibly offer. When your bf/gf cursed you and screamed at you, the choice is yours to scream back, or even to tie her and hit her with a 4x4 vehicle..it may sound fulfilling to your hatred feelings for him/her, but anger and temper would never resolve and solve anything.That's the one valuable lesson i have learned..is to lose your temper, is to only brings matter worse..

Well thats if for now i guess, gotta pack my things and figure out what i'm gonna buy as a wedding gift for Azrul and Ruby..Take care and au revoir~

I Want...

If you just give me the chance, these are the things i dream that i want to do, of course, for you..







I want you to always feel happy, never ever has a single thing to worry

I want to hold your hand, while we sleep, while we talk, and while looking at the sunset we stand

I want to kiss you good morning, and cover you with blanket and wait for you to fall asleep and peck you on the cheek wishing you good night

I want you to smile, every time you remember me by

I want you to never have to say you're sorry

I want you to never have to feel sad, down, gloomy or mad

I want you to never have to feel lonely, frustrated and bored

I want you to know how much i love you, there's nothing that i won't do for you

I want you to cage me, as for you, i don't want to be free

I want to grow old with you, do dishes together, while we cry ourselves out with laughter

I want to be the only one for you, cheering you up, whenever you feel blue

I want to be your shoulder to cry on, i'll be there till all your tears are gone

I want to be your soulmate, a place for you to love and hate

I want nothing more, but to see your face everytime i knock at the door

I want to be remembered, as your best man ever

I want to hold you in my arms, to make you feel safe, to make you feel warm

I want to outlive myself for you, to know that it's best thing that i will ever do

I want to show how much you mean to me, i would give you the world, the sky and the sea

I want to die in your arms, smiling saying goodbye for the very last time

I want to love you like no other person could possibly do.

Azie, I want only you.

And I thank you for being there for me, to love and to care, forever I'm in debt to the priceless moments we share.

Why I Love You So Much

One day while you were sitting beside me, while we were in the car, while we were walking, while we were together, often you ask me why do i love you so much. And since that day, everytime i know the answer, i typed it into my computer. There's all 145 reasons for me to love you till this day. But in here, i'll just write the 1st 25 as to write all 145 would take a very very biiig looong space =) And to that question, here are my answers:

1) You changed my life, from crying in the darkness, to smiling in the light

2) You show me that laughter isthe best medicine in all illness



3) You show me how love is, full of compassion



4) You love me like no other living person could love someone



5) You show me the meaning of honesty



6) You show me the meaning of loyalty



7) You are the sweetest person i have ever encountered in my 23 years of life



8) When we say goodbye, i miss you instantly



9) You are, without a doubt, the soulmate that i seek



10) Your toleration and understanding i could compare to no one



11) Your smile is as angelic as it can be



12) You never fail to make me laugh and smile



13) Your temper show me how much you care for me



14) You is all i see, everytime, everywhere



15) You are what every boyfriend wants, and every boyfriend needs



16) You are my first true best friend



17) You are always there when i need you the most



18) You bring me out of difficult moments in my life



19) You make me dream of a future that i thought i could never have



20) You make me smile everynight before i sleep



21) You make me eager to live



22) You teach me courage, and honesty to one's self



23) You teach me patience and toleration



24) You show me the truest sense of friendship and relationship



25) You complete my life


And there is nothing more that i could wish for, for you to be here by my side. To be the one kissing you goodnight, and good morning, is something that forever i will be longing.

Azie, this is for you, and i love you more than ever..





X0X0X0~

Things You Don't Get To See Everyday

Godey-godey dave's pc and i found a few interesting pix ranging from Mateng's peaceful slumber while waiting at IJN to Kechik's ciku-chak behind a tree to the kanak-kanak istimewa expressing their frustrations ..things you don't get to see everyday.. =)

The Table Manners Story

Helloo! I'm back after CNY break..Didn't get as much angpow as expected..ahh nowadays angpows are replaced with oranges and Cap Tangan groundnuts..aiikh what to do, what to do..anyway, since im having a lot of free time today, i wanna write about table manners lah - since we Malaysian have all this kind of variety of food, from roti canai to spaghetti, from teh tarik to Esprit, from mamak rojak at the tepi longkang with his motorcycle alertly waiting the arrival of the bloody MPPJ/DBKL, to the lavishly decorated Big Apple Restaurant at the Berjaya Times Square Hotel. One unique thing about the eating manners that we Malaysians have, is that we really, really, really like to talk while we chomp our food. So while the conversation is about to get more and more interesting, so does the food that's being mercilessly chomped in the mouth. You can practically see the complete process of the shredding of a whatever-that-is-being-bitten-to-smitherins by the end of the conversations..Yep thats us.. =)

Anywayyyy..this is among the most basic table manners that can be practised in important business functions, romantic candle-lit dinners, wedding dinners, kenduri, family dinners at home or at the mamaks for all i care..haha



1. DON'T SLOUCH

Mind your posture. Sit up straight and don't lean back on your chair, or too far forward. Keep your arms near your body and elbows off the table. Don't put your feet up on a chair, especially if someone else is in that chair.

2. DON'T BE MESSY

When you sit down, put the napkin on your lap and leave it there to catch any stray food. If you spill something, use your napkin to prevent anything from spilling onto other people sitting next to you, before you attempt to protect your own clothes. If you need to remove something from your food such as a stray piece of hair or an insect, do so subtly and place it under the edge of your plate.

3. DON'T EMIT BODILY NOISES

Avoid coughing and nose blowing. If you need to cough or sneeze, turn your head away from the table and cover your mouth with your napkin. An inappropriate burp or fart may ruin the meal for anyone else.

4. FINGERS ARE A NO-NO
Try not to order anything that doesn't require the use of cutlery such as hamburgers, french fries and corn on the cob. Use a knife and fork for your food, and put your knife down before you start eating. Never use your fork to cut food. Foods you can eat with your fingers. But then, often we have trouble with cutlery as well. And so, here's how to delicately enjoy your food with your cutlery

5. DON'T REACH FOR FOOD

Rather than reaching over someone for anything, simply ask someone to pass it to you. And, make sure to pass whatever's near you around the table as well. But only pass it if you're the closest person to the item. And when you pass the salt and pepper, they should always be passed around together.

6. DON'T BLOW YOUR FOOD
Blowing on your food is only acceptable if you're five years old and the woman sitting across from you is your mother. Simply allow any hot food to cool down on its own before you eat it. And don't slurp.

7. DON'T BITE OFF MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW
You don't want to choke during a business lunch, literally or figuratively. So place small portions of food into your mouth and chew them thoroughly. Chew with your mouth closed and don't make any noise

8. DON"T SPRAY FOOD WHEN YOU SPEAK

Don't drink or talk with your mouth full. The last thing you want is for bits of your meal to end up on your company's plate or face. Once food goes into your mouth, it shouldn't be seen again. If you need to spit a piece of food out, do it surreptitiously by using your napkin and pretending to wipe your mouth.

9. DON'T PICK YOUR TEETH WOO

If you feel a particle of food stuck between your teeth, try to use your tongue to dislodge it. Or, take a sip of water and push the water through your teeth to remove the food (subtly of course). If these attempts fail, excuse yourself from the table, grab a toothpick, and do the heavy digging in the bathroom. And never scratch your body, pick your nose, or clean your ears, especially with your car keys

10. INDULGE IS FINE, BUT DON'T OVERINDULGE

Pace yourself with food and alcohol. Take your time eating and try to finish at the same time as your companions. And as for alcohol, don't drink more than others at the table or more than you can handle. The point is to impress people with your manners, not your drinking abilities.(*hic hic*)

11. DON'T BE A DOWNER

Don't ruin a pleasant meal by bringing up polarizing topics like politics or religion. Conversation and conduct should be light and cheerful. Be good company, in a good mood. When in doubt, keep your mouth shut and listen. If you're on a date, let the girl ramble on about her job, family and friends.

12. NEVER COMPLAIN

When faced with an entre that tastes like low-grade horsemeat, don't blame the waitress -- she didn't cook it. Raising a big stink will make you look like a jerk. Simply ask for a different dish to replace it. But if you're eating at someone's house, just grin and bear it because saying anything would be rude.

13. DON'T LOOK LIKE A SLOB

Dress appropriately for the occasion with clean, unwrikled clothes in good repair. If you're wearing a hat, especially a baseball cap, remove it before you are seated. Don't chew gum or smoke at the table.


To know more, here's a few websites you can look through :

http://www.cuisinenet.com/glossary/tableman.html

http://www.lahacal.org/gentleman/table.html

http://www.nationalcenter.org/WashingtonCivility.html


So so, Bon appetit!!~

Words Of Wisdom

And so said the genius, Albert Einstein:

If A is success in life

then A = x + y + z

Work is x;

y is play;

and z is keeping your mouth shut

L.O.V.E. (Part I)

Oh, here we are again, with the same lame topic..AHGAINN..the lovey dovey mushhy mushhhy topic..make it the topic of the year oh for all i care.. Just read Yuen's blog about love with his usual very2 respective writings and opinions about love and not to forget the trivia knowledge the wiki-freak got all filed and foldered in his ever-anarchist mind. And the post somehow triggered me to write my own opinion about the same topic; love..or CHEIINTAAAA while doing sudoku on the Net (and i blame Ca'un and Amy for the sudoku-fever reoccurence) lalalala~

Oh, yeah i am no casanova nor romeo, just one ordinary Joe with an ordinary life - make it an ordinary cancer-plagued life - who is about to waste his time chattering like a monkey about this LOVE topic of his. And of my 25 years of life, my first love was one stupid meaningless puppy-love of 7 years that went dead naturally with the girl chose to end it with no pride, let alone respect nor dignity. And regret? I never even had any..In fact, it was a feeling of actually breaking free from a 7 years death sentence..To be wise, you need to do mistakes in your life. To know that you need to do mistakes to be wise, you need to prepare yourself for heartaches and cushion yourself from the hardfall. Love isn't all about the you're-in-cloud-nine-feeling 24/7..it comes in a package..Like buy 1 free 1 kinda thing..When you love, it also comes with hate, and other 1001 ugly hideous feelings that you never thought you get to nightmarishly experience.

Love is capable of making a toastmaster stutter, and making the happiest person suffer. As Yuen wrote in his 'post - Filler' : "It's easy to fall in love when you're lonely", i find the statement is true for most of us weak Earthlings, or may it be Weaklings. When you're loneley, in the dark quite solitudity, when you sit alone at the mamak stall drinking your teh tarik and every table around you is filled with laughter..and you need at least another person to make a laughter - indicating they are not alone. You laugh alone at a mamak stall, you'll end up in the psychiatric ward for a month or two. When you're single, you tend to hold this mantra to believe that it's the coolest thing ever - not to be binded, not having to commit, no one to boss you around of not to do this and that, free to be youself, free to do anything you want- bt then, until one day, when you were in your stride, you halt, to realize that how long will you live like this? Seeing one person to another without ever thinking of having a serious-meaningful relationship etc. How long will you be able to stand on the singularity status? How long will you humm the "I Will Survive" song? Not till the song changed into "I Will Sour-vive" i think...

that's all for now then..time for a lil sleep and AXN-watching..Part 2 of the LOVE will come in the near future :) Take care readers, and au revoir~

Song Of The Week : Muse - Starlight

A nice song! Owh the drum is awesome!! And the black jacket that they all wore in the vid clips is all cool..especially the drummer's. View the cool vid clip at my friendster's page. Hope you guys enjoy it as much as i do! They'll be coming to Malaysia this 24th..but dont think there's anymore tickets though *sigh*








Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Far away
The ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

And Here I Am..Back In MMU Again

Hola sanyoritas and papa margharitas!! The talking-blog writing-annoying panda is back! Heh..its nearly a month now i didn't open my blog..let alone writing in it..ah as if u guys missed me :P Well things have going on a lot lately..I'm back in MMU(yay!), back to living in Cyberjaya - a place to practice to live in Hell 7th floor, back residing in MMU's cramped-but-not-so-many-reliable-books library..but the air conditioning is still superb, back to hanging out with friends at Putrajaya bridge (mummy, if you're reading this..i'm doing revisions at the library), back to dinners at Malee, bck to the old life of Andri Ghazali. And i have never been happier :)

Currently i am homeless..which is something that is not-so-proud-to-be-bragged-upon.. Something came up with the landlord bla bla bla..and the next thing you know, you ended up having neck pains from looking for posted banners advertising 'Room for Rent' from the not-so-sky-scrapping-but-still-high Cyberia condos. Ah, that can be left later..after Chinese new year..and yeah for Chinese readers i wish you all a Gong Xi Fa Cai..Ang Pau Na Laiiiiiiii..

Currently, i am still waiting for my money from MMU finance..which can and may take forever and ever..and I am taking the hardest subjects in MMU right now..really really tough ones deyhhh..Both Management and Advanced Managerial English is something you don't kid about..haha! But the advanced managerial English has a nice ring to it though..as if you are taking English lessons from Cambridge/Oxford or Wharton's School of Business kan?kan?kan? For now its not that hectic but room-hunting really gets you with the post-fatigue and kinda hurts your wallet a lot with the top-ups you continuously buying from the NZ store just to call agents to know that they only have rooms priced at 450-500 bux a month.Are you shitting me? 500 bux a month? It's like a perbelanjaan seorang ayah terhadap anak beliau di sekolah rendah sri petaling tau takk??

I still got another 2 years to leave this living hell hot-skin-piercing-UVrays tahap tader kesian punya university..make it 3 lah..wanna get out from here with a 1st class degree..then pursue Master's at Wharton School of Business after finishing my contract at UOB for 3 years. Ah, and after that continue being a student in UM doing law degree..See, who says i can't figure out what i'm gonna do with my cancer-plagued life..heheh

Well..that's it for now..ahh, for my official black-nail remover, thank you soo muchh..later in free time i treat you makan ok? (keropok lekor at the lori begerak in front of Cyberia can or not? haha) Kay then..need to take a cat's nap for awhile..later they are all going to Sunway midnite GSC watching Ghostrider (mummy again..if you're reading this..i'm planning to stay-up at the library till midnite coz after CNY-break got exam :p)

Take care and au revoir~